Gift from Him

I have been meaning to give a fixed donation on a monthly basis to an organization involving in muslims sufferings in Palestine but just not confident enough as I dont have a regular income.
The thought always in my mind but as usual I am procrastinating.

Until one fine day..

It was Friday and I just came back from outing with my son when I noticed a message from a dear friend far away asking for similar thing for her programs.

When it comes to donation I always depend on my instinct.
And at that time my instinct was yes go ahead!

A quote that I have quite forgotten entered my mind.

                              "IF A PERSON ASK FOR YOUR HELP,
                            CONSIDER IT AS A GIFT FROM ALLAH"


And I also remembered how the people who have died wish to be alive and do charity.

And I also remembered about myself procrastinating to do the same towards the organization mention above.

So it was the good time and the right time to do what I have in my mind all along.

Suddenly I felt special

It was Friday.

I had a gift from Allah..

I am feeling so blessed..

Thank you my dear friend for asking me to help you.....

Thank you Allah for the gift.

Reading Quran

I have finished reading the Quran many times in my whole life.
And  I knew my reading may not be right especially the tajweed.
But that didnt stop me from continuing reading it.
Once I engaged with my kid's ustazah to teach me tajweed but I went for only a few lessons because I couldnt concentrate and have so many unsettled things in my mind.

My mission now is to read Quran and at the same time listen from the reciters.
Initially I used You Tube.
But yesterday I just discovered that Quran.com has a play attached on each surahs which made it easier to straight away know my reading mistakes.
I love it!!

This time I may have to read the Quran slowly but it will have more quality than before.

Help me,
Guide me,
To the straight path...

When depress,surah dhuha is the answer.

I first saw this video from Facebook and thought what a great and funny story it was.I can watch it again and again..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9xhZ00xnHIA

And I wonder ...
Did those things ever happened to me?

I wish I had experienced the same thing.Having questions in my mind and straight away getting the answers in Quran.

And it happened to me recently.

I was feeling down..
feeling alone...
feeling like everything was against me...
feeling like Allah is angry with me..
feeling like I wasnt doing enough for Him.

These unhappy mood happened for few days but I never stopped doing my daily solats  and zikir eventhough sometimes I felt empty .
Like Allah wasnt there to listen to me....

One thing good about me is that I dont tend to wallow too long.I will eventually find a way to overcome the unnneccasry feelings inside me.I take actions!

So I forced myself to wake up earlier because I planned to search for  any you tube programmes that can help me.

 I wrote the key words in the search space-" what to do--depress--islam"
.
And I clicked one of the you tubes with similar words and out came SURAH DHUHA..

I have read surah dhuha few times but never thought that its one way to heal a depress feeling.
When I heard it with the tafsir I started to cry non stop..
These words really cut me through my heart..

   BY THE MORNING BRIGHTNESS
     AND THE NIGHT WHEN IT COVERS WITH DARKNESS
        YOUR LORD HAS NOT FORSAKEN YOU,NOR IS HE DISPLEASED
          AND INDEED THE HEREAFTER IS BETTER FOR YOU THAN THE PRESENT

There I was having bad thoughts on Him when actually He is helping me.Allah is telling me to be patient with whatever I am facing that time.He never forgets me nor ignore my plea.He is telling me that the world is a temporary thing and afterlife is what I should aim for.

Then the following surahs came along..

 AND YOUR LORD SHALL SOON GIVE YOU,SO YOU SHALL BE WELL PLEASED
He will reward me if I am patient ..I must remember that!

Then the following surahs  told me that I need to be grateful with what I have now.

  DID HE NOT FIND YOU AN ORPHANED AND THEN HE SHELTERED YOU
    AND HE FOUND YOU LOST OF THE WAY AND HE GUIDED YOU
      AND HE FOUND YOU POOR THEN HE ENRICHED YOU?

I felt better after reading the surah.

I think when you want to find answers you will find them but if you read the Quran with no misson to search for answers then you wont notice any of them.

I keep telling myself that -be patient,the worldly life is temporary,the hereafter is better and be grateful.Dont whine too much!

Thank you Allah for your guidance.